Post Admission Blues
The past few weeks post-admission have been overwhelming. I feel like I’ve lost my footing a little bit, both professionally and personally. The training wheels have come off and I’m… liable.
Whenever I’ve felt “controlled” .. I’ve had this urge to, lose control. As an ‘alpha,’ I suppose that’s been my way of ‘controlling’ the situation, but I haven’t been managing that too well.
Despite several years of practice, I still can’t control my feelings. I’ve gotten to the point where they no longer control me (yay for progress!), but I’m not immune to their existence and lately those feelings have been insecurity, uncertainty and unease.
Am I doing enough? Does anyone care? Am I even making a difference?
Work feelings bled into personal feelings; which I suppose is also progress from back in the day when personal feelings bled into work feelings; but its still not a good thing.
I’m an avid believe that motivation is intrinsic, so I knew where I had to go to find what I needed: the beginning.
When we feel like giving up, we have to remember why we started.
