Day 1216

Post Admission Blues

The past few weeks post-admission have been overwhelming. I feel like I’ve lost my footing a little bit, both professionally and personally. The training wheels have come off and I’m… liable.

Whenever I’ve felt “controlled” .. I’ve had this urge to, lose control. As an ‘alpha,’ I suppose that’s been my way of ‘controlling’ the situation, but I haven’t been managing that too well.

Despite several years of practice, I still can’t control my feelings. I’ve gotten to the point where they no longer control me (yay for progress!), but I’m not immune to their existence and lately those feelings have been insecurity, uncertainty and unease.

Am I doing enough? Does anyone care? Am I even making a difference?

Work feelings bled into personal feelings; which I suppose is also progress from back in the day when personal feelings bled into work feelings; but its still not a good thing.

I’m an avid believe that motivation is intrinsic, so I knew where I had to go to find what I needed: the beginning.

When we feel like giving up, we have to remember why we started.


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The Balancing Act

Not enough/Way too much.
Can’t give up/can’t go on.
Why bother/try harder.
Can’t let go/Can’t move on.

One thousand two hundred and sixteen days ago I came to Australia.

In those one thousand two hundred and sixteen days, so much has happened. I did it, I got #lawyered. The thing with leaving your family to pursue your dreams and career is that when you achieve it, they’re not always there to share it with you.

And when your salary works out to be the same as a cashier (that’s if you work a 37.5 hour week, its even less when you work evenings and weekends), and long weekends are spent doing more work while your friends enjoy family time. It really makes you wonder whether you made the right choice.

I’m grateful, no doubt about it. I know many people have made many sacrifices to help me get to where I am today. The encouragement, the support. I think it’s safe to say a few glass ceilings were broken when a ‘single indian girl’ was sent by herself to study abroad for a second, and then third degree in lieu of getting married and starting a family. I get it, I asked for this. Hell, I fought for this.

But sometimes, just sometimes, I find myself wondering, was it worth it? 

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Healthy Recommendations 

ATTENTION: If diet and nutrition are on the top of your resolution list, here’s a list of a few people I’d recommend getting in touch with (because I have either trained with them or have been trained by them and can vouch for their skill, professionalism and effectiveness). Please share for those who may be interested.

Hyperlinks will direct you to their Facebook page.


1. Kin Consulting (website:
Powerlifting, nutrition, weightlifting, competition prep.

2. BLM Barbell (website:
Powerhouse facility, oly lifting, powerlifting, strongman, community.

3. BLM Strength Academy
With Lauri Bernard, boot camps and strength training in Abbotsford, BC.

4. JD Fitness
With Judy Dueck, bootcamps, conditioning andgroup training studio in Abbotsford, BC.

5. Training Day Cafe (website:
Macro-friendly meals and meal prep, serving the lower mainland.


1. Coco’s Gym (website:
Powerlifting (competition prep) & GC’s best strongman training facility, nutrition coaching.

2. Body Dynamics Training (website:
with Trent Thurtell- Exercise Physiologist/ Performance Coach and Sam Thackway
Crossfit, gymnastics, mobility, oly lifting and nutrition coaching.

Also noteworthy is Brie Quilter: Whole Soul Living, who I’ve had the pleasure of training beside and who has since established her own whole foods, health and wellness business providing prepared meals/meal plans and holistic living.

3. Alex Hart Fitness (website:
With Alex Hart, a personal trainer who will come to you!

NOTE: most of the above provide online coaching as well.

Happy training xo

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Resolution’ers Request

2 January 2016

5:45 PM


Resolutions, anyone?

As the new year begins, resolution’ers are in abundance. Grand proclamations of “new beginnings” and “big changes” are made, some of which may very well materialise in the coming months.

I’ve always strongly detested when people made jokes about how busy the gyms are in January, and picked on the “bandwagoners.” I distinctly recall reading a (Facebook) post along the lines of “get out of the way of my training, we know you’re not going to be here in a few weeks.” Needless to say, that person was quickly unfollowed & unfriended. I don’t support that kind of ignorant behaviour. 

Everyone starts somewhere. Some of us have to (re)start a few times. Some of us (re)start every day. One day at a time. 

Remember that

Remember that when the gym is busier than usual this week, this month, the next few months, it’s a good thing! Healthier people = happier people.

Remember how nervous you were, or awkward you felt the first time you joined a gym; or re-joined after having fallen off track.

Remember that discouraging the new faces you see, or scowling at someone using “your” squat rack won’t make you a bigger person.  

Remember that was you, once.  But mostly, remember that it could be you again. Hey– life happens, right?

Support ’em or step off. No one needs your sass. 

Stay classy, kids.


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Supermoon Eclipse — My Wish For You


Screenshot from NASA’s live feed.

If you’ve been following ‘what’s trending,’ or even glanced at your Facebook Newsfeed today, you’ll know that tonight was special; a Supermoon Lunar Eclipse. This phenomenon is both, astronomically and astrologically significant. According to Elephant Journal, there are four key things to note about tonight’s Supermoon Lunar Eclipse:

  1. It will be a total lunar eclipse which means that the Earth, sun and moon will all align precisely– which only happens a few times a year; 

  2. It will be a supermoon which means when we look up at the night sky the brilliant glow will be breathtaking;

  3. This full moon takes place very close to the equinox (mark of a new season) which amplifies its energy considerably.

  4. This particular lunar eclipse will be the fourth of four total lunar eclipses in a row, or the grand finale.

While I do believe in a Higher Power, my faith has definitely taken a hit this year. The reasons as to why and how are unimportant, but I found myself turning more than a curious eye to astrology and in particular, these lunar eclipses.

“Many of us have been thrown into relationship karma since July with the Venus retrograde cycle and some of us even longer. Now that the cycle is nearing completion, we’re closer to understanding our own needs as well as what we need in our relationship.”

The part that interests me is the idea of this cycle nearing completion; I feel like I’ve been going through a bloody spin cycle since February. I want to believe that this is the end of all of that, that good things are just around the corner, so with whatever faith I have left, I put it to you (and the Universe)

Tonight is the end of the cycle. May the weight of our trials and emotional burdens be lifted from our mind, heart, soul and spirit. May this eclipse bring the closure we seek and the closure we need to wake up with renewed faith, restored energy and a lightness in our heart. So it is written, so shall it be done.

As I read that back, I can’t help but role my eyes a little bit; but you know what, sometimes we just have to go out on a limb, believe in something a little bigger and put our intentions out into the Universe. So there it is.

We’re ready for something amazing, Universe.

Bring. It. On.

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Krish Deo, Founder of Kin Consulting

He has been touted as one of “the few coaches I’d trust in BC.” He’s a National Powerlifter himself and his clients’ success speak for themselves. I have not only had the pleasure of being trained by him, but training with him and now, YOU CAN TOO.

If you’ve ever wondered what the best version of you would look and feel like, if you thought your goal body was out of reach, or if you worry about having to restrict your eating to chicken and broccoli to reach your goal physique, send me a message and I’ll personally introduce you to the best coach I know for your personalised training and nutrition plan.


Kin Consulting; customized training and nutrition programs for all your fitness goals!

It gives me great honour as a sister, client and investor to announce the launch of Kin Consulting. If you are seeking a true professional, academic and practitioner of all things health, fitness, kinesiology and physiology, you need to consult with Krish at Kin Consulting– best of all, his coaching is available online! Customized programs, weekly check-ins, Krish goes the extra mile to ensure his clients get the best version of him and what he has to offer, always.

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