…and in that moment it felt as though months of self-work and conscious efforts to ‘get better’ were in vain.

The walls she had learned to build to protect herself had come crashing down; burying her under the weight of her own fears and insecurities.

If all it took was a few choice words from the right, wrong person, had she really gotten any better?

Defeated, discouraged and disheartened, she began to feel like any attempts to improve were futile. Something was broken inside her and as much as she tried, she couldn’t help but feel that she was beyond repair.

She felt herself sink into the feeling.

She had lost.

She was lost.